Lamentations 3:22-25 KJV

It is of the LORD's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.

They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.

The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.


Let me share this entry from a dear sister in Christ, bianca. hope this will move you..

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Im dying of end-stage Waldenstrom Macroglobulinemia.. a cancer of the immune system.. My doctors told me i only have a few months to live.. But who are they? they didn't create me, did they? They did not master every part of my body as what my maker have mastered..

I only realized my disease 3 mos ago.. I was honestly not ready for the news i was about to receive.. At that time, I had 8 mos to live.. The doctors suggested several ways of having cure to this disease but they were all useless.. it only brought more pain to the body that had already been painful.. WM has no cure.. at first i started asking God why.. why has this happened to me? but little by little im seeing light at the end of this dark tunnel i am walking through.. i no longer see myself 5 or 10 years from now.. that is too far from reality.. i know my frail body will not last that long..

but this disease had given me a new perspective in life.. it gave me reason to thank God for every single breath i take and every morning i see with my failing eyes.. i come to appreciate the leaves falling the the roses beside my hospital bed.. i learned to love my parents more.. say i love you to those i really love.. and appreciate every single and simple things people important to me are doing.. knowing that i may not be able to that again.. or perhaps tomorrow..

i have now come to accept my condition.. i know from my heart of hearts that God has a better purpose for me.. oh how i pray that my testimony may change lives and make people realize how short our live are.. it is short because no one can be sure that they are still alive tomorrow..

i am not praying for long life for my sake.. i am praying for long life so that other people may come to realize the same realizations i had while im on my hospital bed.. i am not praying for healing for myself.. i am praying for healing to those people that have long more years to live and can do lots of change to other people and their community.. i am not praying for miracle for myself.. i am praying for miracle to those people who knows me or read this post that they may realize their potential in Christ to be used for his greater glory, before its too late..

i wanted to write lots of things here.. but that seems to be boring to read.. so as you finish reading some parts of my life, i dont want you to pray for me.. I WANT YOU TO PRAY FOR YOURSELF.. what have you done for Christ lately? when was the last time you became a blessing to your family and brethren? my friend there is only one difference between you and me.. I have 5 more months to live.. but you don't know how long or how short you'll live.. i pray that you would start acting right here right now.. i don't need to know you're a christian.. i need to SEE that you're a christian..


Bianca - 12/12/2007


from Christianster.com
(published with permission)


Lamentations 3:22-25 KJV

It is of the LORD's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.

They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.

The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.

update: Bianca death came earlier as expected. details here

Inspiring entries

A Love Letter in the midst of a Hold-up.. hehe :P a true story...



this is quite long, but i assure you, this is worth your time.
enjoy... ^^,)



A Love Letter in the midst of a Hold-up.. hehe :P

It was the finals week of my second year in second year college…
So in short, it was the most toxic, huggardness… and nosebleed season of the semester.

I was on my way to spend another whole night at the computer shop of Morayta, to interpret another psychological test… (ang walang katausang psych test *-*)
On my way I had an intuition that I will experience a hold up. That was really weird and scary because I had all my money in my wallet. So in short, pag nahold up ako… patay nah… finals pa naman… hehe :P

But I was reminded of the prayer of protection prayed in the Lord’s prayer, so I prayed, “Lord, protect me from the evil one.”

At the computer shop, it was so weird that the counter assigned me to use the computer na nasa pinakadulo… it was so unusual kasi wala pa namang tao and ang dami pang bakante sa unahan… but I don’t know, I just followed.

It was getting late and I was thinking if I should go home, or else uumagahin nanaman ako. Now, the system of the computer shop is that their charge is fixed per hour. So if you would exceed even just a minute that would be equivalent to a rate of an hour… (hmm.. sigurista…)

I was watching a very nice video but I asked God, “Lord, log-out na koh?”… (so, pati yun tinatanong kay God… wahaha) but the video was really good so I decided to watch it again…

After a minute, on my peripheral vision (naks! May ganun), I saw short man with a knife pointing to a big big man… “ilabas mo na cellphone moh!” kamusta naman, ang laki laki ni kuya pero di siya nakapalag…

I thought that was just a dream, pero totoo eh -,-… naku, what shall I do? First time ko kayang mahold-up… good thing na nasa dulo ako, others has been preparing what they could give while I am thinking how could I outwit the holdapper… (lahat kaya ng pera ko nakasalalay dito… hallleeer…pang projects ko kaya toh…)


a… kunyari di ko sya nakita.
b. throw your wallet gracey! Tago mo sa likod ng computer…
(pano pag nakita nya? Edi mas lalo kong nalagot…)
c. parang awa mo na kuya… finals ngayun, next time na lang, promise!

I cant even pray sobrang taranta… but good na nasa dulo ko so the holdapper was in a hurry na… so he didn’t had to expect me but ask whatever I could give. The guy besides was so threatened that he gave all his money, (am I nuts to do that?). but how, alangan namang bukan ko yung wallet ko ate Makita nyang may tinabi ako… o kaya, humingi ako ng sukli… hekhekhek (bright idea bay un.. wahahaha!!!!)

Sakto, I have two twenty peso bill sa bulsa ng bag koh, which I gave… and he seemed to be satisfied with that, syempre, and dami na nyang nalimos sa mga nauna sakin eh… so nakaligtas ako..

When the holdapper was about to leave, may pahabol pa yung katabi koh… “kuya, penge namang pamasahe….” Ah ganun ba, oh eto… the holdaper gave him my twenty peso bills…

Hahahah!!! Nakatulong pa ang bente koh, infairness kay kuyang holdaper, mabait pa din kahit paaano… ^-^…


When the holdappers left, all of us were devastated and shocked. Their phones and money were carried off by two robbers who threatened us of our lives. It such an irony, I was the only one crying.. the cashier asked me, anung nakuha sayo… wala po… eh bakit ka umiiyak… I was crying because of the video that was playing through out that event…



I just realized that if have logged out when I thought of doing so, I would be paying to the cashier by the time the robbers have come. And the holdaper at the cashier actually had a gun. If I have been there, siguradong nakuha lahat ng money koh… natutukan pa ko ng baril…

I may not have been able to pray during the time when the robbers were there. But I praise God, that somehow, He already showed me what would happen and so I have prayed even before the event happened. I felt that I was indeed, protected, more so, sheltered and loved. I have realized, God is really in control of every second of ourlives!

PS…

This is the video, that have caused me to stay, the video God used to spare me.
And the video, which I have accidentally seen at the youtube ngayon, which prompted me to write this story…


You know what, the essence of this story is just a fourth of the thrill and excitement you would feel if you would just watch this video.

I know you will enjoy it… God bless!





grace